just close your eyes , [victoria hope jean]

[ISABELLE MARIE PARKER]

the silence was eating away at the young woman as she waited for her best friend to come over. keeping secrets from her wasn't something she liked to do but she had up and done it. the fifteen year old rose up from her bed and looked in the mirror and gulped. glancing about she saw pictures that she surrounded herself with hope, amanda, connor, felicity, josh, gabriella! these people were important to her and well it was just scary because she knew how amanda reacted and how amanda reacted but she had no clue how her best friend was going to react. was she going to peg it right off the top and call her on that not being her sister or would she play along? the girls were two of a kind but sometimes they couldn't predict one another sometimes. isabelle picked up a picture and ran her fingers over hope and her when she was three months...she had no clue no one did, but amanda. setting it down she looked up at herself. "it will be okay" she said and left her room shutting the door behind her.

across her room was the room they made felicity's but she slept with mama most of the time! she entered it and smiled down at her little angel that was asleep. apparently, while mama was at school she had a long day and she stayed up to see her and then izzy put her down and promised to come get her when it was time. she always made promises to her daughter, because she wanted her to know she would keep them. "i love you felicity" she whispered and she blew her a kiss before shutting the door. the walk down the hall felt extremely long today, and the time gap of school and hope coming over well seemed like a century. the girl felt like she could be sick, but at the same time she felt like eating...it was a comfort and it couldn't hurt her. she settled on some left over pizza and heated up..then she sat down at the counter and nibbled on it overthinking about this.

when there was a knock on the door or well when she rang the bell! whatever it was she did isabelle's eyes shot upt to the door. she slid out of her seat and through away her plate and the remainding crust. quickly she wiped her face off and then she went over to the door putting on a smile. "welcome home hope" she said stepping aside for her to come in. she had not been to the new place her mother had purchaced. it was huge and about time! she shut the door behind her and tucked some hair behind her ear. "my little sister is sleeping, but i can give you a tour if you'd like" she said biting her lip! she'd tell her! she had too....right?

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tagged: victoria hope jean
muse: safe and sound taylor swift
notes: dun dun dun
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[VICTORIA HOPE JEAN]

it was an exciting day for the young miss victoria hope jean. she was going over to her best friends house to spend the day with her! it seemed that school had taken forever to let out, because she was excited about this fact. she loved spending time with isabelle! she was her best friend, any day that she spent with her, she knew it would be a good day. the two were so alike, but also so different. the younger girl knew just what to do to make hope smile, but she also knew how to piss her off to extreme lengths. the girls definitely had their tiffs, but they always managed to work it out. nothing would break the two apart.. atleast she hoped it wouldn't. she hoped there wouldn't be a day when a fight really did tear the two apart forever.

when she walked up to her best friends house, her eyebrows went up. it was a nice house! she grinned a little and walked up to her best friends door. she contemplated on if she should just walk in, or if she should really knock on the door. she decided to go with the latter and knocked lightly on the door. she then stuck her hands in her pockets and rolled back and forth on the heels of her feet. she looked around outside, and her eyes traveled to the side to where she could see the beach. izzy was lucky to be able to stay at a beachfront house, but she did love her ranch home. she smiled a little as she looked out at the glorious beach, remembering when she met matt.

it was a cute moment, she had to admit. they instantly clicked, and he left his number in a cute manner, by leaving it in the sand. she felt bad for keeping it from izzy, but she had to make sure it was the right moment to tell her. because she wasn't sure how iz would react, and she definitely didn't want her to tell connor! because then connor would probably tell their parents, and everything would just go down the drain.. but she shouldn't be worrying about that right now! today, she was just going to have a girls day and hang out with izzy. so, she shook the thoughts from her head and smiled brightly as izzy opened the door for her, "hey iz," she said in a chipper tone, stepping in and looking around the house. she looked over at izzy as she told her that her sister was alseep and she nodded, "alright.. yeah, i'd love a tour," she said, the smile still on her lips. how big could the place be?

word count: four hundred and fifty nine
tag: marie with izzy
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notes: this sucked.. now let the fight begin! hehe.

[ISABELLE MARIE PARKER]

one jean well had been here briefly, but then they went to the carnival! it was an upgrade from a normal home, but her mother was high maintanence, and well isabelle kind of had no place else to go and she liked it, but it was too fancy for her liking. a roof was a roof, and it wasn't like her ma was even here much, but it was time her best friend came over! they needed some fun time and if they wanted they could look out at the beach later and it would be great and cute! she hoped. though her nerves were practically eating her alive at the moment! the two girls both seemed chipper about this time together, but now she felt like she was just going to throw up..maybe the pizza was not a good idea!

well, if hope walked in it wouldn't be so bad it wasn't like the little monster was up and crawling about or in her little runner chasing iz around the place. the words little sister though she always wanted to choke on those! "this place is like a castle to me i mean who puts their cielings up this high" she said looking up kind of in a dorky fashion starting her tour of randomly like that because , well she was afraid to show her felicity...they could stay out of that room, but surely the girl would ask! it was what she got for always talking about the cute little thing! "sorry random comment" she said giggling. the teen spun around with her hand on her hip. "alright where should i start.."

everyone had their secrets and both of their's were kind of big, but a baby...that was a biggy! "oh i know we can start off with the awesome view from my moms room..its like so beautiful" she said and heald her hand out for her friend. she wanted to hold her hand before she hated her for awhile...if it came down to that. this was hard! knowing you could possibly lose someone you loved so much..'yoou thirsty or hungry though first i want to play good host" she said looking to her friend and smiled. thus far everything was smooth, but she knew that eventually either felicity would cry or hope would ask to see her or about her...would she keep lying then? she would have to see how it played out. she was so so nervous...though she was hiding it the best she could!

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tagged: victoria hope jean
muse: safe and sound taylor swift
notes: dun dun dun
outfit: here

[VICTORIA HOPE JEAN]

when hope was in the house, her brown eyes immediately started to look around. she was in shock of how big the house was already! she kenw that she had a kind of big house, but.. this was pretty up scale. she looked over at her friend, and to her, her best friend seemed out of place. just because she knew that isabelle was so different from all of this. she didn't know what to say about the place, except that it was nice. honestly, she didn't care much about the house, she just wanted to spend time with her best friend! it's been long overdue, in her opinion.

she rose her eyebrows up in amusement as izzy spoke about the house, before letting out a small laugh, "well, at least you can say that you're a princess in the castle?" she said, looking over at her with a grin on her pink lips. then her eyes looked back around and she also felt out of place. this place looked fancy! and that was something she definitely was not. she wasn't fancy in the slightest way, so her in her little toned down sundress made her feel weird. but it was whatever, she didn't dwell on it. she was hope flipping jean! she fit in everywhere. or at least, that's what she thought.

looking down at izzy's hand, she smiled before she placed her hand in hers, "exactly how big is this place? does your moms room look out over the ocean?" she asked, wanting to know more about this new place. she wondered why the decided to get a beachfront house.. but then again, who wouldn't want a beachfront house? that would be amazing! to wake up in front of the beach every morning.. she shook her head at the question, "no, i'm not. i'm good. and iz, you don't have to play good host," she said, laughing a little bit at the end. she tugged on her friends hand a bit, "come on! i want to see this amazing view!"

word count: three hundred and fifty
tag: marie with izzy
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notes: this sucked.. now let the fight begin! hehe.

[ISABELLE MARIE PARKER]

the house was too much for isabelle's taste, but joshy loved it and her mother was somewhat of a show of. she had the money why couldn't she spend it on this place? though it was outrageous because she was never fucking here really! it was almsot impossible to call felicity her fake sister sometimes. what mother left behind a baby? it wasn't all that plausible, but while her mother was out having the time of her life isabelle loved nothing more then to hang out with her little brother and her little angel. big house, small house...it didn't matter she knew what she enjoed the most it was the great company. isabelle spun around and courtsied for her friend when she called her a princess in the castle and winked her way..it was iz and not without any nerves. she giggled "why thank you seniorita jean" she said taking her friends hand and kissing it. "though it pry should be the other way sense im a princess, but oh well." she was just teasing. she didn't have a big head about it!

"stop thinking" she said reading her friends face. "this homes as much yours as it is mine you're my best friend and it doesn't matter if it looks like justin bieber should live here or that i do...its walls and a roof and the company is better" she said laying her best friends thoughts out there like an open book! they grew up together iz knew her better than anyone, or well she would like to think. then she asked whether her mothers view looked over the beach and well iz smirked. "you're smart" she said moving towards the big room and going to the doors opening them the patio was a prettier sight. "i don't know what i did to deserve the view and to live here...but if i was spending that kind of money...i'd be right here everyday forget hollywood..i'd have my horse tied up and i'd ride and this would be my paradise" she said just outside the doors looking out onto the beautiful beach.

isabelle heard a shrieking cry and instantly for more reason then one her heart sank. she hated hearing her child crying like that, but at the same time it meant the end to...to the..to it all? maybe. isabelle's eyes glanced to her frantically and sighed. "sorry be right back" she said quickly running to felicity's room. soon enough she was in her arms and she was rocking her. "baby, its okay..." she turned around to make sure hope..wasn't there yet. she got close to her ear and whispered barely audible. "mommy will never leave you" she gulped and got her to stop crying before the moment...the moment of truth was to come out. isabelle slowly retraced her steps to where she ran from holding felicity tightly, but not tight enough to hurt her. "she was scared" she said playing it cool. the truth was iz was too scared to say anything and almost instantly felicity's little tear streaked face looked to aunty hope...well to see who mama was talking to. isabelle well she couldn't look she just looked to the beach like..like she was clueless, but truth be told she felt like she couldn't breathe.

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tagged: victoria hope jean
muse: the ballad of mona lisa panic at the disco/dark side kelly clarkson
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[VICTORIA HOPE JEAN]

running a hand through her hair, she looked over at her friend with raised eyebrows and an amused look on her face. her best friend surely was something! but she wouldn't have it any other way, that much was for sure. she had been friends with miss isabelle jean for as long as she could remember, and she loved it that way. she hoped that she would never have to say goodbye to her, until the day that one of them died. kind of like pooh and piglet! it was a silly comparison, but cute all the same. she rolled her eyes playfully at her, before grinning, but not saying anything more about her friend being a princess. she had nothing more to say about it.

hope bit down on her bottom lip as isabelle pretty much read her thoughts. if there was one thing that drove her insane about izzy, it was that! she knew every little thing that the girl was thinking! she couldn't hold anything from her, most of the time. unless she absolutely had to, "it's just... i feel like i should be dressed up more," she said, in kind of a lame tone, "it's weird." she was never a girl to worry about presenting herself a certain way, because she was just.. herself. but the minute she stepped into the parker household, she felt like she should have come a little more dressy! just because of how the house looked, but she didn't dwell on it, "but it's whatever. i'll stop thinking about it," she said, before grinning over at izzy. she followed her as she moved towards the room and when she opened the patio, her eyes widened, "it's beautiful.." she said, nodding her head, "i've never rode a horse on the beach... that would be amazing," she said, smiling a little at the idea of it.

when she heard the cry of the child, she looked back before looking over at izzy. when she said she would be right back, she just nodded her head and looked back out the the scenery in front of her. she didn't know what was to come.. she didn't follow izzy, because she said she would be back. maybe she could see that precious baby that was crying.. when her best friend came back to the room, she looked over at her when she explained what was wrong. she nodded, but her eyes went straight to the baby that was in her hands. she was gorgeous.. so precious, "she's beautiful," she said in a soft tone, a smile matching it. she looked back up to her best friends face, before waving a hand in her face, "hey, what's up with you?" yeah, she didn't know what was going on.. but she could just feel the nerves radiating off of izzy. kind of like how izzy could read her, she could read izzy. just not as easily.

word count: five hundred and three
tag: marie with izzy
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notes: this sucked.. but it's time to fight now. hope's about to get real upset.

[ISABELLE MARIE PARKER]

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isabelle rolled her eyes at her best friend when she said that in one of her more lamer tones. "why i'm impressed." she said trying to pull an amanda and jokingly check her best friend up and down. she failed miserably and ended up turning her head because of a cheesy smirk that ended up on her face. "i'd be the worst creeper ever" she announced and she began having a little giggle fit. "you're weird." she said with a wink well just toying with her best friend! of course, she didnt actually think her best friend was weid. she loved her till death do them part. connor knew that amanda and hope were the other people that she couldn't live without! she'd marry her best friends in a friendly like way if that was possible just ot assure her commitment to them! yeah, that was how much she loved her girls! "it really is." she breathed out. she looked over the beach and back at her friend. "one day it'll be something we have to do!" she said in reference to riding on the beach. it would be a nice memory to add to many they already shared!

isabelle, well she loved felicity and every moment she spent with the little angel she brought into this world, but she was extremely nervous, because she didn't know how her best friend was going to react! it was nerve wracking, but once she was in she got her baby to settle down. "mama loves you baby girl" she said kissing at her cheek. felicity was still asleep a bit but she was comforted in her arms. the two were a team. walking back into the room she smiled when she said she was beautiful. she loved hearing that, because she wasn't expected but at the same time she was the best thing to izzy. "thanks" she said happily. suddenly she snapped out of her trance when her friends hand moved back and forth in front of her face. she felt like she was going to throw up! everything was obvious now! "hope..felicity isn't my sister." she said glancing into her eyes. she was so nervous she couldn't tell her the whole story. "she's my daughter.." she gulped. she hoped she'd just know it was her mother's doing she couldn't tell people. she just waited for her to be mad. "felicity nicole jean." she whispered almost inaudible.

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muse: skyscraper demi lovato
notes: <3
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[VICTORIA HOPE JEAN]

at first, hope was confused when izzy said that felicity wasn't her sister. she looked down at the baby girl that was in her best friends hands, before looking back up at her. she was.. her daughter. she didn't really know what to do at the moment. she knew that she was angry.. upset, confused, and hurt.. when hope got angry, there really was no containing it or controlling it. she looked down for a moment, crossing her arms over her chest. that's when 'jean' rang out in her mind, though she almost didn't catch that part. her eyes widened and she snapped her head up, looking at her best friend in shock. there were a lot of emotions going through her, she wasn't quite sure which one was going to make the big appearance.

apparently anger decided it wanted the spotlight.

jean? jean!?! she had to be joking! she looked at isabelle's face to see if she was joking any, but she didn't see any signs of joking, "are you kidding me?" she then looked back at felicity.. her best friends daughter, apparently her brothers daughter.. her niece? she was an aunt, and the fact that she didn't know that her best friend was pregnant, much less that she was an aunt, pissed her off more than anything, "are you kidding me right, izzy?!" she asked, her voice raising and the anger was growing in her tone. she didn't know what to do.. "why didn't you tell me before?! we're supposed to be best friends, and you keep this huge piece of information from me? what the hell!?" she asked, kind of shouting now. but she didn't want to yell in front of felecity and make her cry.. but she couldn't help it!

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tag: marie with izzy
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notes: this sucked.. but it's time to fight now. hope's about to get real upset.

[ISABELLE MARIE PARKER]

honestly, it was a relief! she didn't have to hide anymore, but she was trying realy hard to read her best friend. she hoped she didn't completely hate her on the level that she had sex with her brother. the two both shared a special moment and she didn't regret it and neither did connor. she wouldn't take it back for the world, because she loved connor. she knew she should have said something, but it was hard. her mother was making her keep it because of image and if hope knew..well she would have told connor and it would have resulted in losing felicity! this was the only way she could keep all together, but suddenly she saw that everything like she suspected was about to drift into a state of beyond...isabelle gulped and held her daughter close bouncing her a bit. her eyes left her friend and went to the water. she instantly regretted not doing this with connor now. she knew he'd be able to settle everything.
which one was going to make the big appearance.

in a trance she felt slightly safe.

the tone snapped her out of it and well she instantly turned to mommy mode. her stance kind of straightening up, but she said nothing. she just shook her head. "this isn't a joke this is my life." she finally managed. the anger was evident, but she just expected more from hope? she expected her to know that she didn't have a horrible reason from keeping family away from family. if hope knew felicity would probably have been long gone. her mom threatened her! she was doing this the only way she could and she was giving her enough respect to do it face to face? "do not raise your voice in front of her." she said trying to keep her's steady. when she said you're supposed to be my best friend, well it rubbed her the wrong way. "and you're questioning that i am?" she asked raising a brow. she sighed and shook her head. "joshua?" she said walking to the door and soon enough her brother appeared on cue taking felicity. she kissed her head and waved. "mama will be right there baby" she said shutting the door and turning back to her friend. "if you're being serious..i'll give you serious i had to hide it from you" she said pointing to her mom on the dresser. "its not something i could tell my ex's sister and expect her not to ruin it...if i would have told you felicity would be gone...so before you get up on your high horse why don't you let me explain..best friend."

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tagged: victoria hope jean
muse: skyscraper demi lovato
notes: <3
outfit: here

[VICTORIA HOPE JEAN]

hope just wasn't thinking straight at the moment. one minute, she and izzy were being silly, talking about being princesses in a castle.. then the next, she was yelling at her about not telling her about a kid. if hope knew how to control the anger that often bubbled up in her chest, she wouldn't get into half as many fights she did.. she wouldn't say things that she didn't mean. but, that just wasn't her. she was the girl that got mad over silly things and egged people on. she wouldn't be hope if she didn't do that. she was pretty sure that if she tried to go without doing that, people might ask if she were sick. it was just how it was, she couldn't help that part of her personality. while, she hated it because it often drove a wedge between her and the people that she loved most, it could sometimes bring them closer together in some events. when they could work out whatever the hell they were fighting over.

deep down, and i mean way deep down, the better side of hope was just telling her to shut up! this wasn't a fight she needed to be picking, but she couldn't help it. her anger and being so upset out weighed her want to just grab izzy and hug her, so instead, she stood there with an angry glare on her face and crossed arms over her chest. she rolled her eyes when she said that this was her life. obviously, it was. she got that, she was just.. so mad that her best friend didn't share this part of her life with her; but... everyone had secrets, hope just wasn't thinking about that right now. she watched as josh took felicity away, and she knew that things were about to get really serious. right now, she just wanted to walk out. but izzy always had tell her a piece of her mind, "no, i'm not questioning that you are," she said, rolling her eyes once more. of course not! hope would never question izzy's loyalty to her, she just didn't like being out of this huge piece of her life. she looked over to her mom's picture on the dresser, and began to wonder why she didn't want anyone to know the truth about felicity, "explain? it seems pretty clear to me, iz. you lied about your own daughter!"

word count: four hundred and eleven.
tag: marie with izzy
outfit: here.
notes: this sucked..

[ISABELLE MARIE PARKER]

honestly, she shouldn't have expected anything less than anger, but she wanted it to be somewhat different? every girl would want their best friend to hug them and tell them how beautiful their kid was when it came down to it. though if she was in hope's shoes, well hope didn't know what it was like, because she didn't have a boyfriend to have sex with! she didn't know what it was like to be in love and to have your mother want to rip it away from you. the fact that her friend was mad made her uneasy. she didn't understand...and the question, well just rubbed her the wrong way. isabelle, well was in an emotional state..this was a very emotional moment...for her at least. it was one emotion though for hope; anger, well and sorrow.

deep down she wanted to completely understand all of this, but her mind was blurred as well! "no i'm not!" she said pointing to herself and then shook her head. "maybe, i took it out of context, but your the one that literally said it.." felicity was gone and it was just her and hope. iz sighed she already missed felicity and the fact that she was sheltered and she wanted to just curl up with her kid right now and cry. "i'm not..i'd never!" she responded again trying to make it clear that she wasn't the one questioning shit. she rolled her eyes again and well iz matched that. there was a reason! she wouldn't without good reason. she thought hope would know that! then she went off again and called her a liar! technically she was, but she didn't see it that way. she felt herself glare and then look at her mom and then hope. "because if i would have told you..you would have told connor, and i had to leave everything i loved..and i had to be pregnant not you! i get it i had sex and i got pregnant im the fucking bad guy here right?!" she shouted and she began to tear up. "see this is why. "i was all alone..i had no one." she cracked. "i don't even see how you have a right to be mad..its my secret..i had to hold it in! you know my mom!" she pointed it out. she didn't directly say it which pry made it worse, but she was hurt and upset.

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tagged: victoria hope jean
muse: skyscraper demi lovato
notes: <3
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