we can go brighter than the sun , [open]

[EMILEE RAYANN PALMER]

the warm california sun shone bright and the pavement depicted a lovely yet very familiar shadow. miss layla was home from work today, so it meant the young lady could go out and of course one of her favorite places were the beach! the girl quickly ran back in her house after she had locked her stuff in the car. the girl went and kissed her little siblings goodbye and then hugged her mommy! the girl just always did this because family was really important to her and she was not hesitant to make it known. "bye mommy ill be back before sundown and if not i promise i'll text" she said seeing as she couldn't hear. that or she would call! it was always awkward when people wanted her to call them...she always had some sort of excuse and well her mother didn't know why she just didn't fess up to her condition, but she made it work. all the byes and promises behind her she was out the door and in her car.

the girl had the radio on, but she couldnt listen to it. she merely did it to appear normal! what seventeen year old girl didn't drive and listen to music. the girl got there safe and got her stuff out of the back and then slid her phone and keys into her bag after locking her car. she moved down the beach to tan of course because she always felt kind of light thought it wasn't always the case. she found her normal spot and spread out her towel. the girl sat down and slipped her dress over her head and then she got the sunscreen/tanning lotion out of her bag. then of course she applied it. "you could never be to safe" she said like her mother always did.

once she was all lotioned up the young woman laid out on her towel face up and she well she just kind of had to deal with the sun because the way she could tell if someone was standing over her was shade or seeing them. the girl couldn't hear them approach or talk to her. though for safey measure she put headphones in her ear and made it seem like she was listening to music even pushed play but there was nothing. it was funny the measures one had to take, but not so funny because the story was sad, but she was happy under the sun and tanning. the girl wished she could hear music, because she danced to it and people choreographed for her, but to be able to hear what she would be moving to would be so amazing! the girl didn't let it let her fall though! there was some moments when she was sensitive to the matter and she would cry, but her life wasn't bad because she was deaf! she refused to not do normal things and to let anyone in on her secret! she dealt with it amazingly according to her mother and thus far people hadn't figured her out! emilee shut her eyes because the sun was just to bright. the girl would just have to be aware and hope for a light touch or a sign. the music helped as an excuse.

words: five fifty one
muse: we are young by fun.
tagged: open
outfit: here
notes: (:

[CHRISTIAN MASON ANDERSON]

christian mason's daddy was never a very nice man but he was passed out still from the day before. he was always glad when his daddy was asleep but he had to be home by four because that's when he woke up for the next days drinking. some people thought it was christian who was doing the bad things because he wasn't in school no more, but it was his daddy! he was forced to quit school, so people wouldn't see the bruises or notice he wasn't always so happy. his daddy didn't want to get caught and that was also why he really wasn't allowed out of the house unless he was with a girl and that was usually just aj. he didn't have work today, so if he was't home by four, his dad would be really mad at him. but he had to try and go do something, because he hated just being stuck in this house all the time. he'd go insane! he had his phone and he could go online and he could call and text and phone hangout with aj but that wasn't always enough. he put on his swimming trunks, a shirt and he put on a hat before he walked slowly on his tiptoes but he didn't expect the man on the couch to be moving. he held his breath and his dad poked his head up and glared at him.

the boy swallowed and bit his lip, "um..hi daddy." his dad stood up and staggered over to the boy and well cma held his breath but he couldn't brace himself for the pain that came with the punch. he didn't even know he did anything wrong..maybe it was the colorful trunks or the rainbow shirt...but he just didn't expect his daddy to see him. "daddy..did i do something," he whispered and the man just slapped him across the face and the boy cried. "where are you going?" the words were a hiss and the boy cringed and that just made him get hit again. "um..i was going..to the um beach. to look at woman," he said..lying to his dad. he never really did it before, not on purpose but he had to get out of his home. he really wanted to look at cute surfer butts and he would and then tomorrow at work he'll tell aj all about the cute surfer butts and look at more! his dad just kid of smirked at him and clapped him on the shoulders and it took all of the boy to not cringe and cry but he gave his dad a smile back. "go have fun," he said, smiling at him and turning away and going back to the couch with a beer. christian just shook his head and opened the door and headed out.

he had to walk because his dad couldn't afford a car and most of christian's money went to pay rent and electricity, since his dads disability's check now went to his alcohol, now that christian could afford to keep them alive. it was kind of sad..being hit and abused and being forced to take care of the person who was supposed to take care of you. but christian was kind of used to it and he was just happy he gout out of their and he hoped his dad didn't smack him too hard in the face. he didn't need any visible bruises because he didn't need people to ask questions. when he passed by a store window on his long walk to the beach, well the boy noticed that his face was clear and he smiled, however he did remember that he forgot his lotion but he didn't have money on him and he frowned! he didn't know what he was going to do now.

the surf shack had a little rack of sunscreens and things, so the boy walked into there and he found aj's mom and smiled brightly! "misses monroe...i forgot my sunscreen and money at home..i was wondering if i could have some." she gave him a bottle and he promised he'd pay her back but she told him not to worry about it. sometimes he felt like the monroes were more his family than his daddy was but he put his sunscreen on and he headed back out to the beach. he saw a young looking girl laying on the beach and he didn't want to really be lying to his daddy, and so he'd go over and talk to her..so he could tell his daddy that he talked to a girl! he was kind of shy though but he smiled brightly and he'd go march his butt up and be christian and just say hi! though her music was loud so he tapped her shoulder and sat down and hoped she didn't get mad at him because some people didn't want to be bothered but he was hoping she'd be different. he didn't want to say hi until he was sure she was listening because he didn't want to seem like a dumby.


tagged: marie and emilee
word count: eight hundred and sixty two
outfit: colorful swim trunks and a shirt with a rainbow on it.
notes: hii (;

[EMILEE RAYANN PALMER]

the warmth of the summer sun was no beating upon her on the beach, but for the longest time it wasn't easy for her mother to really accept her doing things like this. why? well because if someone snuck up on her and took things the girl would never be able to hear them and the woman was really cautious about her baby. well, she wasn't her baby she was her oldest but she really did require a lot of care! emilee though managed to convince her mama that everything would be okay and she'd keep a good eye on her stuff. though she didn't really have an eye on it right now it was kind of touching her side, so she would feel it move. miss emilee, well she was a happy little thing and she wanted to go out and live life just as much as the next teenager! tanning, was something teens did and well she had fun doing it even if it meant laying around and being lazy. who would of thought it would be a normal thing to lay out around in the sun and just soak it up? who knew it would change your skin any other color then red, well obviously shit had adapted for teens like emilee and others, because it was normal, but it was kind of funny to think about these things sometimes.

laying there though with music in her ears that she was unable to hear kind of made her think of her father. this was a scary thing for her, because just memories flooding back of him and the car when she was little. the little girl had loved her father, but he was a cruel cold man. then the fact that he killed someone and well her mother kind of told her what had happened sense she was older. it really made her sick to her stomach to think of her dad. she was so lucky to have her mother and not have to worry about her dad being around anymore, but the girl well she hoped he was alright even though she didn't like him too much and had some cruel thoughts about him from time to time. he was still her father and he had been a part of bringing her into this world. she quickly shook her head as if it were some nightmare and whispered. "get out get out" she wanted him out of her head! the girls eyes shot open looking up at the water and the people playing around and she smiled. those were much better sights then the ones in her head! they were like demons, but the warm california sun and the fun beneath it was heavenly like.

the girl shut her eyes again, but she didn't let her head wonder upon her father now she was thinking of cute boys and cheerleading and how sad the basketball season was wrapping up. the girl liked the games, because stunting was easy on mats! though spring was coming up well the spring season, and that meant competitions! which meant disneyland in the summer if the sharks could land a spot. the team was good this year, but there was a lot of good teams out there! wrapped up in her thoughts she kind of jumped knowing it was going to happen when she was lost in them. someone she knew? she sat up quickly hoping she could catch what...oh it was that boy that hung out with that monroe girl. she took her earphones out and stopped her ipod. the girl wasn't too fond of him, because she didn't understand how anyone could hang out with someone that was so demeaning to herself, but she also didn't like bullying. "hey christian" she said in a semi-chipper tone. the girl didn't understand him, so she wasn't going to be her fully bubbly self.

rumors really sucked, and she hated that she had to believe some of them, but that girl really did seem like a bad egg. it couldn't be a coincidence and she felt like she should respect herself a little more and that this boy should too. "it is christian right?" she asked to be sure sitting up into an indian cross legged formation. the girls back was to the sun for more than one reason. seeing his lips were a big plus though and it was the main reason. "how are youu its been like forever and a day" she said seeing as he didn't go to school anymore. the girl heard he dropped out because of drugs or something, but the more buyable one was that he got a disease from his so called best friend. whatever, it really wasn't her business, and there he was and here she was and it would be rude not to talk to him seeing as he approached her.


words: eight twenty seven
muse: we are young by fun.
tagged: open
outfit: here
notes: (:

[CHRISTIAN MASON ANDERSON]

the anderson boy knew what it was like to have a father that wasn't very nice and didn't treat his kids well, if anything...he knew that very well. he didn't tell people though and he dealt with the pain inflicted by his father and he escaped when he could! it was hard to escape but he did it and he felt good...being out of his room..the four walls and the smell off beer. he shivered as he kicked at the ground and bit his lip and thinking of the blog that april told him about. he hated that there was a rumor on there that said he was a druggie and he cried that night. more than he ever did when his dad hurt him because he didn't do anything to these people. they picked on him and he was nothing more than a sweet, happy boy and he just couldn't take it! he could barely take the abuse from his father and that had gotten so normal and so often...that he figured he must have done something wrong. though he didn't mean to like guys!! it just happened..hot surfer butts were cute and he didn't care anymore what people around him thought. he was happy with his aj and no one was going to stop him from being aj happy! she wasn't a slut, they didn't know the true her! only he knew and he wanted to hug her and make her happy because they said he was diseased too and that's why he dropped out...a part of him...well a part of him wanted to yell and scream at everyone but he didn't. he just took everything as it was handed to him and the tears were over for those meanies. they weren't going to control him...he needed some control over his life.

when the girl said hi to him, well he was ecstatic that someone recognized him and knew his name and he waved both his hands like a crazy boy before calming down a bit! he didn't want to scare her off because he did kind of act like a druggie in the sense...but he just liked being happy. happiness just..it just came to him when he was out the house and he needed the bright smiles and the friends. even if they didn't know the truth, he needed them there because he could forget about his father...he could forget all the pain for just a little bit! he couldn't always see his aj and so he would deal and see others! happiness radiated through him as he tapped his fingers on his legs and bit down on his lips. then she asked him if that was his name and he nodded, pulling his legs up as he sat down, resting his chin on them. he liked to keep them close to him beccause he felt kind of protected in a sense like this. like nothing would come and hurt him today...that he would get home in time..that everything will be a-okay!

if she ever told him her feelings, he'd cry because it hurt to know that people didn't think he was respectable and from time to time he wanted to yell! he wanted to tell people that aj was a virgin and he was too and he was gay and he loved God and he wasn't doing bad things!! but he didn't tell on aj because she was doing it for all the nerds out there..and so he just let her take the abuse because she knew what she was getting into! but he helped her feel happy just like she helped him and they were two happy peas with secrets that no one but them knew and they were okay with it being just the two of them. everything was okay! they were okay together by themselves! "i've been okay," he said, not wanting to lie but not exactly telling all the truth because he felt bad lying so he didn't lie completely! it was sad that he was stuck in this whirlwind of lies because of his drunk father. there was a bruise on his shoulder and his shirt didn't cover it all but he hoped the girl wouldn't notice...he should have worn a long sleeve shirt...but it was too hot for that and he looked around, making sure his daddy wasn't looking for him.

sometimes his daddy woke up early and got mad and he didn't want this nice girl to see his mean daddy because his mean daddy would want him to date emilee and he was gay!! he liked guys and he kind of stared at a really cute surfer guy and sighed. he was much more a fan of the sweet southern gentlemen but he really did like the butts on surfers...they were cute...he snapped out of his thoughts and looked back at the girl, feeling rude and sad all at once. he frowned, "sorry..." it was a habit, sayign sorry for every small thing because usually a punch would be involved if he did that but he had to remember that he wasn't home but here with a nice girl named emilee. "how have you been? i miss school..i wish i could go back.." he could go back...but he couldn't! legally yes but his daddy wouldn't let him....so he couldn't! he couldn't do what his daddy told him not to do, it caused too much pain on christian's part. he said too much and he realized that too late and he hoped she wouldn't question it and he mentally yelled at himself and wished april was here to fix this...to make up something and fix what he was saying..


tagged: marie and emilee
word count: nine hundred and seventy two
outfit: colorful swim trunks and a shirt with a rainbow on it.
notes: hii (;