ROWAN, belle marie

[BELLE MARIE ROWAN]

belle marie rowan

what is your name ,

"oh, well my name is belle marie rowan and i tend to like my name quite a bit! as for anything else like other names people tend to call me a princess. its kind of a judgmental thing, cause of my looks and what they believe me to be but im far from a princess and i work for what i have. it might not be work people will approve of but its what i do for my school because i don't want to use my parents pretty penny for my life. i like princess though because beauty and the beast was my favorite movie and im fine being 'princess belle' its every girls dream right?"

what is your date of birth ,

"my birthyday is may seventh, nineteen ninety two"

how old does this make you ,

"im nineteen years old! yup im still young and still vibrant and i don't drink because im illegal but even if i was legal i don't think i'd drink either way."

what degree of education do you acquire ,

"now, i don't have an actual high school diploma and you might be like 'what that's lame' but you can think whatever it is you want to think but its not lame at all. i have a ged and im a sophomore at golden west academy of the arts and my major would be dance. i love to dance and its my life other than cheerleading but i do that as well! i love my school life and its why i do what i do outside of school, so i can continue to go. i don't want my parents to have to pay, im a grown woman and i can do it all on my own."

where are you currently employed ,

"im not currently employed anywhere but yes i have job, because i've mentioned it above. i also have a boss, thats what i call him anyway, his name is nicolaus and hes not exactly the nicest but i get paid a good percentage of what i make per client and i make a lot of money and im okay with that. oh? you want to know what the job is. well don't judge because i have my reasons behind doing it but i'm an escort. fine, its a fancy word for prostitute, whatever but its what i am. i never thought i'd be doing something like this but things don't always happen the way you want. sometimes we just don't have a choice in the matter and so i do what i do to live the life i want to live. i also teach a dance class and i volunteer at the hospital and anywhere else i can find time to volunteer."

who is your claim to fame ,

"well, many people have said that i look a lot like candice accola, yeah the girl from vampire diaries but i don't really think so. she's super pretty and i find it an extreme compliment but its not a true one. i could only dream of looking like her, maybe i'd make enough money to already pay off everything and go on living my life and not need to work as a prostitute another day of my life. but, i don't and im just plain old belle marie and im okay with that."

where were you born ,

"i was born right here in the darling city of huntington beach, california. but you probably already judged me as that because of my beached out looks? well you were right this one time."

where were you raised ,

"i haven't left home. i mean, i don't live at home anymore and i rent a condo and i have the dorms but other than that, i still live here in the city."

what is your ethnicity ,

"the problem would eb that i never really asked. i mean, both my parents were born in america and im pretty sure if you trace my linage back enough we were one of the first settlers who rained from england. so im english? if theres anything inbetween, which there's bound to be a bit of mix somewhere, im not sure where it is or what it is."

what languages do you speak ,

"i speak the lovely language of english and thats all i really know."

what do we see in when we look at your eyes ,

"my eyes are a greenish blue color and i guess that's called hazel? or am i wrong. im probably wrong because im an idiot but yes those are my eyes. the color changes depending on my mood or the lighting and there ends up being a lot of interesting combinations that blue and green make together. i wear very little eye makeup, the occasional light eyeshadow and eyeliner, but i always have at least a tiny bit of mascara to make my eyelashes seem a bit longer and just to make my eyes pop when i need them to. the only time i ever wear too much makeup is during a performance or a game. but i put it on in the dressing rooms and take it off right after. i hate wearing so much but its what i love to do and you always have sacrifices to make."

whats the deal with that hair ,

"oh. well my hair is a natural golden blonde, and it's length is long and curly. it flows down past my shoulders and i usually always keep it down and let it remain its curly wonder! though i do straighten it sometimes and even put it up in a fancy like bun to feel more like a princess. though most guys tend to like it natural and down and so i let it flow the way they like it. it all depends on my mood and my client."

how tall are you ,

"i am five feet eight inches and im not sure if this is average or tall but its my height and i like it that way. im not sure what more i should say on the topic of my height because i don't deem it as very important to really know much."

how much do you weigh ,

"i weigh about one hundred and thirty pounds and i consider that the average weight. i don't starve myself to stay skinny but i eat healthy and eat balanced meals and i do what i have to do. i, of course, have curves and meat because im a real woman and not a barbie doll but men tend to like a girl with some meat and thats me. so im fine with the way my body looks and its perfect for dancing and cheering, i wouldn't change aa thing."

overall describe your looks ,

"well i told you all about my hair and eyes and i guess i should continue along with my face then. my lips are a soft pink and i love to put a little bit of lip gloss on them. my cheeks have a natural blush to them and when i get embarrassed, which is quite often, they turn an even brighter shade of pink. i have a freckle on my hip, one lone freckle and i find it funny really. i also have a birthmark on my butt, or so i've been told by a lot of different people. scars rake my stomach area for when i got into a bike accident as a young girl. my daddy said i hit a barbed wire fence and well, im glad i don't remember it. it sounds like it hurt a bunch. my ears are pierced and thats all really. im pretty normal looking other than my scars but no one seems to care about those anyway."

what is your overall sense of style ,

"some would say 'barbie doll' but i don't think of it like that. i like bright colors because it just radiates a lot of sunshine and happiness to me and i like to not dwell on the sad things in life. even at bars or clubs i wear something bright and flamboyant because i don't think i should have to change my style because its what makes me, well me. i don't show a lot of skin when im out and about because im really not a whore! i mean, okay i technically am but its not something i like known about me. so, my dresses are of decent length and they don't show much breast skin. i wear jeans and t-shirts when i consider it a 'comfy day' and i wear flats and heels, depending on my mood. of course i have my dancing clothes, which are tights and things of that nature. also, my workout clothes which is sweats and a tank and then theres work clothes. those...are my more revealing things and are kept in my condo so people don't see it unless i want them to see it."

what are your strengths ,

"i think i have a few strengths and i'll tell you about them! i believe my optimism is a very good strength because i don't let anything tear me down and i get through it with a smile and a happy attitude on life. i think the fact that im very helpful is a strength because it means i help others and im strong in my helpfulness. i also love to cook and am good at it and if i wasn't such a great cook, then i wouldn't feed the homeless! im strong in my religious beliefs because i don't let anyone tell me that im wrong in my beliefs because faith is important to a girl and sure i sin and i don't like it and maybe one day i can stop and be forgiven and be happy. maybe one day but for now im stuck how i am. i guess im strong at hiding things because i've yet to let people know of my anxieties or job other than hope and that was an accident and i refuse to tell anyone else."

what are your weaknesses ,

"people say that my caring attitude is a weakness and i guess its true. i get close to people and im bound to get hurt sometime or another but i like to care and i like being me. chocolate is by far my greatest weakness and if someone just pulls out a piece i'll do just about anything. not sexual favors, thats saved for work and i would never tell a secret on my friends but by anything i mean, like go hangout or something. its just my favorite thing of all time. i guess another weakness would be that of my trusting nature because i trust everyone and im bound to trust the wrong person but i don't think theres a chance i'll get hurt. i guess you could consider me naive in the fact that i hardly think anything bad will happen to me and so that would be a weakness as well and lead me to do things i know i shouldn't. my axieties are defintely a weakness and its one of the reasons i tend to actually do what i do because they stop the anxieties even if only for a little bit. its better than freaking out in my opinion."

what are things you acquired a liking for ,

"i like a lot of things because im just not a girl who hates much. so here's a list! i love the taste of chocolate, i love to cheer and dance and i love to make friends. cooking, cleaning, playing board games and truth or dare with my friends. i like a good game of twenty questions, as long as the questions aren't too personal. connor, hope and my brother are on my list of likes but those are some normal things to be expected. i love salads and chocolate and i like sex. i love working out and keeping up my body image and good hygiene, i love that too."

what are things you did not acquire a liking for ,

"i dont like a lot of things and they include: fatty foods, unhealthy foods, judgement, being called names, her anxieties, being away from my brother for too long, not being able to spend a lot of time with connor, lying to my friends and family, the smell of garbage, dirty rooms, school and math especially. i hate being fat or feeling fat, so i work out a lot. i hate when guys try to hard and i hate the ones with slobbery kisses and grope you like your some object. i like nice sweet men who know how to take care of someone. like nick."

what is this we here about you ,

"rumors aren't a good thing and i don't like them but i know theres been some circulating about me and connor. which are not true because i would never do that and he would never do that. people tend to say that me and connor had an affair while he was dating izzy but its not true! i was a virgin back then and i wouldn't fuck him now. not that i don't love connor, he's my best friend, but i don't like him like that. plus, he wouldn't do that either and its sad that people would stoop so low to try and break up him and iz because they are just the cutest things in the world and i feel bad and i hope it doesn't ruin everything they have."

what is your personality like ,

"anxious: i have a lot of anxieties and i've just always kind of been this way. from a young age if i was put into a situation where i didn't feel comfy, i usually freaked out but i was sometimes pretty good at keeping it to myself. if i try to take in deep breaths, i can usually calm down. im always anxious about what people would think of me if they knew and how upset my family would be with me. i don't want to lose them because i love them and its a scary situation to be in. sex usually helps me calm down, and i get a lot of that but after awhile, im freaking out again. its not really a permanent solution and nick has given me antianxiety meds and they work enough to keep me from freaking out.

polite and self-concious im very polite because i was raised a catholic and my parents taught me right. well my dad taught me right because my mom wasn't exactly around much. but i hold doors open and i try to say please and thank you. all those things that make you a polite young woman in society. i also tend to dress modestly because its the polite thing to do and im a modest girl for the most part. i don't like people staring at me and the idea of if it makes me really nervous and scared and i just don't like it! i guess, it knd of seems like a contradiction to being an escort but thats why nick gives me the anti-anxiety meds because it helps with that nervous feeling for the time being. later i wonder why they paid so much or if they saw the scars or if they thought i was gross because its just who i am.

judgmental: i know God says you really shouldn't judge and you should leave that up to him, but its kind of a human habit really. its like a test and i fail it all the time and i feel bad because i don't really know what to do after that!! its bad and i don't mean to look at someone and see what i want to see because that makes me the girl that people try to place me as and im not that girl. i refuse to be the conceited cheerleader that everyone thinks i am.

helpful: im really helpful because its always just been who i am. some may not really seem to believe i could be because everyone tends to judge me as a conceited girl and im not! i'd give the shirt of my back to someone who needs it more than i do. i always volunteer at soup kitchens and i bring food to the homeless on the street and i bring them clothes. i love to try and just help people because its kind of sad when you see them all dirty and homeless and cold. i buy shampoos and i do a lot for them so that they can feel good for a little bit. i know a lot were druggies or alcoholics but some just had a hard time and ended up on the street and couldn't get back on there feet. i'll help anyone who seems to need it because its just the girl i am and i don't like to see people hurt.

innocent: well, this would be more how i let people see me then how i really am. but don't get me wrong, i was a virgin throughout high school. yeah there were rumors about me and football players but none were ever true. i was a pure girl and i didn't sin because i was a catholic girl with beliefs and i made sure to keep those to heart. i really do get flustered and nervous when people talk about sex because i don't like to talk about it and its kind of something i try to avoid discussing. i do it, but i don't like to talk about it because it just seems like a weird thing to discuss.

slutty?: i guess this is something i am and i'll have to manup and deal with it sooner or later. prostitutes are slutty? thats how people will see me if they find out about who i really am, though people tend to think im a slut because of the rumors. but those aren't true! i never screwed my best friend or anyone until i met nick and i did that because i need to do that for me and so i don't have to be my mothers daughter all the time.

sweet and caring: i like to believe that im very sweet and caring because thats who i like to be. though i guess this kind of is a repeat of helpful but for some reason ts kind of different. im sweet and i try to be nice to everyone and i didn't really mention that in helpful. so im going to mention it here and i care about all kinds of things. i like to help animals who are in need and if i see a stranded pet i take it in and try to give it a good life.

optimistic: if you think about it, i never really had a good childhood because i was practically raised by nannies but i think i managed pretty well in not letting it get to me or change me into one of those people that don't like to be happy and smile all the time. im not a sad person and i am usually really good at putting a positive spin on things!

tudy: well i really don't know what to call it but i got a bit of a tude from time to time! its not like a try but if something gets all messed up i can get kind of angry. if i see someone picking on somebody, i'll go say something and im not the nicest when i do. when i was captain and my ladies weren't doing what they were supposed to do, well they got a side of me they never really expected to see and i was determined to not be known as the barbie doll when iit came to my squad. we won championships because of me and my tude and so its something im proud of but i hate it as well."

who is your father ,

"my father is samual rowand he is a traveling business man and so we wasn't really home. neither was my mom. i love my dad because when he is home, he spends time with us kids and im his little princess. its one of the few times i actually like the name princess, when he says it. i go visit him when he's home because i can't not! he's my daddy and he's the sweetest man you'll ever meet. i just wish he could have stayed home with us kids more."

who is your mother ,

"i guess i could talk about my family? my mothers name is danyeal rowan and she's a politician and the mayor of huntington beach. meaning, she traveled a lot and we were stuck with nannies and so i never really knew my mother much. we don't have a close relationship but we do have some things in common. i have her hair, her eyes, her body and i cheer and dance just like she did back in high school. she always pushed me to do it and of course i feel in love but it didn't mean i wanted to be pushed into it. she always said i lived under her roof and spent her money, so i had to do what she wanted. that's why i do what i do now. i don't want to be under her roof or spend her money! i have my own now and its a happier life in my opinions."


who is or are your sibling(s) ,

"my brother is seventeen and his name is zachary beecher and he's my best friend. we have always been really close because we were all we ever had. when my mom's out of town, i'll go stay with him instead of in my dorm because my brother needs some stability before he ends up a druggie or something. he's a football star, like our daddy and the two of us are always trying to please our parents. its just in our nature i guess."


who are your other relatives of importance ,

"i have my nannies but i dont' think they count, so i don't know anyone else"

what is already written in your book of history ,

"well my history would have to begin with my parents, and im really not so sure how they met but they did and im glad. well, sometimes i wish my dad met a different woman and he could be happy but if he did that i wouldn't be who i was and zach wouldn't e who he was and i honestly love my life the way it is. however we were cared for by nannies, and some would think i'd be a little spoiled brat but im not. my dad didn't spoil me and sure i got what i wanted sometimes but i just didn't let it get to my head. if i threw a fit, i didn't get anything. he taught us how to be well mannered and so did our nannies. i can't say much about my mother.

me and my brother had a really close relationship since the moment he was born. i was three, and i dont' remember much, but i've been told we were inseparable and i would cry if he was taken away from me to go to take a nap and i used to bring my blankets and have 'sleepovers' in his room because he was my brother and i loved him and he made mine happy even when i was little and there's nothing more i could ever really ask for! we are still really close and i try to go talk to him and see him whenever i can and he meets me in town sometimes but i hardly have time. between teaching dance, and work and volunteering, well sometimes it just gets really hard.

when i was about seven, i got into a really bad bike accident, at least thats what i've been told. i kind of forgot it, my dad said it was a horrible accident and its normal to forget things with a lot of pain involved. plus my scars look really bad and im glad i don't remember (this is out of character. she doesn't remember this but her cousin and her uncle had raped her at this age and the scars across her body do not come from a bike accident but from her uncles hand and his knife. her father didn't want to scare her and so he didn't tell her and let her not have to live through that all over again)

i wasn't the greatest throughout school and i hated it a ton! i just wasn't ever really smart but i did manage to keep a c average and join my junior high cheer squad. when i got into highschool i managed to get on the varsity team. i'll never knew how but i did. apparently i was so good i made captain my sophomore year. i guess people liked how i was sweet and caring but i was determined and i'd do anything that needed to be done even if i didn't like it. she wasn't very smart and she did good enough to manage a c average and join the junior high cheer squad and she made varsity her freshman year. she was good and they didnt' want her on jv, they wanted her on varsity. her sophomore year she made captain because no one wanted anyoen else, they wanted belle. she was sweet and caring but she had her moments and knew when to be serious and strong and determined.

now, my junior year of highschool i met my best friend connor jean! he was a freshman but he was supposed to be in eighth grade cause he skipped a grade. he was really handsome and a lot of girls noticed and so he ended up being dragged to our table and we bonded because we had a lot in common. well he was sweet and kind of a little nerd and i thought it was cute and well it was kind of fun really to just have a friend who wasn't your friend because you had pretty hair. high school girls and even college girls could be shallow people and connor wasn't a girl nor was he shallow and we got along really well. we were practically inseparable before he started dating isabelle. at first it was kind of sad but i dealt iwth it because he loved her and he was happy and we still spent time together.

when i graduated from college my mom said she'd pay if i did what she wanted me to do. she didn't want me to go to the arts academy but to go away so she can have a happy family and not a daughter like me. i don't know why she said it because i felt like i was a good daughter and i told her she didn't need to pay but i had no clue how i was going to pay. it was a sad fact but i didn't. that was when i ran across an ad for 'escort service' and everyone knows what an escort does and i went and it looked pretty legit and well i didn't know what to do but nick was nice and he seemed okay and he promisedme a bunch of things and that i'd make so much money.

i was really desperate because the art academy had a GREAT dance program and no other job would help me pay off everything and so i did it and then...now i can't really stop. i mean i could but..i kind of like it...its a complicated situation but i don't want a new job. i mean, i wish i had time to spend with my friends and i really do. i don't have to work all the time and i can see two clients and make plenty money for the day and so i spend time with my friends still. that was the summer before my freshman year and now im a sophomore and my life really hasnt changed much sense then."

what is your secret life ,

"well i've told you my secret life but i can give it to you in more detail i guess. people see me as the sweet and innocent catholic barbie doll and i feel like im most of that. i don't think im a barbie but i try to be caring and im innocent in my own opinions. i mean, i know stuff but i don't? i guess its a complicated situation to really explain. i never had sex before until i met nicholas and he taught me everything i needed to know to make it and i kind of like it. my secret life is that im an escort and not very innocent like everyone believes i am. i sin, sure but who doesn't? i do it because i need the money and i like the sex and its a horrible thing and i hate that i like it but its part of me now.

not many people know of this secret life except a few people! my clients know, nicholas knows but no one else. i never even told my best friend or my brother. im afraid of how they'll see me because my best friend isn't exactly all he seems to be. he's not judgmental of course and i shouldn't worry but that's what i do. i worry and so i kind of keep it to myself and my clients won't talk about it because they are breaking a law too but i do find comfort in nick. i kind of told hope jean, my best friends sister and a friend of mine. it kind of just happened. i was sad and scared and i needed some comfort and hope was there while i was waiting for connor and so i kind of told her. i don't think she judges me or hates me but sometimes i wonder if she thinks of me different."

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what is that past love life look like ,

"well i mean, i was a pretty popular girl in high school and junior high and i don't really know what more to say on the matter. i didn't do dating because i didn't feel comfortable but i had a couple boyfriends. now, i just don't have tme for that or the energy to deal with jealousy and people wanting me ot quit what i do. i love my job, and sure it seems dirty and gross and i guess it kind of is but i like sex and i like being who i am and that that. so i don't date but i have a lot of clients."

what does the current love life look like ,

"my current love life looks much like my past love life. new clients float in constantly and i like it that way. the more the merrier really because it means more money. you may say it means more diseases but nick doesn't run some lets go stand out in the middle of the street kind of thing. its more of an escort service really and there's tests and extreme backround searches before there allowed anywhere near his girls."

what does your friendships say about you ,

"now as for friendships i have a best friend and i love him dearly. he's seventeen and sure thats young and all but he was a freshman when i was a junior because he skipped a grade! his name is connor davis jean and even if i keep a secret from him, well i still love him dearly. he knows everything else about me, all my insecurities, hopes and dreams and i just love him and his girlfriend with all my heart. i was the one he came to while she was gone and im kind of iffy now that she's back. i just don't want to see him like that again.

i love his sister hope, she's amazing and a friend of mine as well. really, i tend to make friends with just about anyone because i come off as a total sweetheart and i really am one! i may not be the innocent girl everyone tends to think i am and sure i lead them to believe that, but im pretty much every other thing i try to be around others and so i make a lot of friends."

what does being an enemy say about you ,

"sure, theres girls who wanted to be the captain of the squad in high school and so they hated me. a lot of people are jealous and i see it and i choose to ignore it! it doesn't really make any sense why someone would be jealous of me because im not perfect at all and im kind of stupid and i know this. im a dumb airheaded blonde sometimes but i guess i have enemies. though i try not to think about it because it hurts to know people judge books by covers and don't really get to know the sweet and caring girl behind the blonde hair and hazel eyes."

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what is your name ,

"i go by belle(;"

how old are you ,

"i be eighteen"

what are you ,

"i be chainsaw masacre of the female sex"

how long have you been roleplaying ,

"around three years or so?"

where did you find us ,

"im a mistress shared by the sexy marie and the sexy briana(;"

what time zone are you in ,

"that would be eastern"

what is the general length of your threads ,

"<.< um it depends. i can manage 400-500 without really trying and more depending on my muse level and the post im replying to."

what is an example of a post you have done ,

it was late at night in the middle of winter and it was cold but belle marie christianson didn't really care anymore. she had been having dreams, very vivid scary dreams she didn't like. they were more like horrible nightmares and they kept her up at night. each night for the last five days she had woken up in fear. woken up in sweats and shaking and then she walked. the same routine to clear her mind. the nightmares were always similar. new things happened and they began to get longer and longer before she woke up in fear. she knew these people but she didn't know who they were. there was an older man and a face of a young blonde girl, not even five years old. she was touching her and slicing into her skin. in the same place that old scars laid. scars her father told her were from stitches when she fell off of a bike.

the little girl was raping her, she was being raped by a five year old and an old man who then kissed the young girl and it was like he was raping her too. right in front of belle but she couldn't look away and the girl was moaning like she liked and next hting she knew she was staring at a shower wall and it was mia's voice she heard adn that was when she had woken up in tears. she needed to walk! she couldn't bother her husband because it would only cause him to be sad. so she would sneak out of their apartment. she had kind of hiding over there because she didn't know what else to do. after mia or bun..she couldn't go back to her room and she wasn't ready to switch room yet..she just needed tanner but she just couldn't stay there and bother him or worry him.

especially because she thought she saw the girl at school. there was this beautiful blonde that always struck fear into her soul when she looked at her. her name was aria because she talked to belle but she was to busy being scared to say go away. finally when they split up, belle had a panic attack. she hadn't had any of those since she gave into nick and had sex...it always stopped the anxieties but this girl was scary. she didn't know what it was but it made her heart race and her body shake. she couldnt' deal with these nightmares anymore. her eyes had bags under them, her face seemed flush and paler then usual and she would fall asleep in class and she couldn't afford that. she needed to graduate.

the girl ended up at the beach because it was the farthest place she could walk and she held her jacket close because it was kind of cold here. shit bit at her lip as she looked across the ocean, her hair blowing across her face but she didn't bother moving it. she just stood there, tears falling down her eyes because now she wanted her tanner. she wanted to talk to him because she felt bad for not. he was her husband and she cared for him and wanted to let him know these things. but would he worry? watch after this aria girl if she mentioned it?

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this application was created by marie , specifically for a beautiful life! do not steal the application or she'll find you and report you to proboards! she stayed up late working on this and she created it on her phone which is hard in and of itself. she will also sick belle and brianna on you as well. one plays with saws and the other won't be a georgia peach if you take from us..you don't want to see her when she's not peachy! thanks lovies(:

[MARIE ,]